The girl that started it all….

Our sweet beautiful Katie Mei. 

Almost 5 years ago, we adopted this sweet little girl.

And she stole our hearts.  Completely.

When we were sitting in the China Hotel in Guangzhou…looking at our sweet daughter sleeping in her crib, we spoke of adopting again.  And we giggled.  And said, well, if we do, it will have to be many years from now.  When our kids are older.  When we are older and our minds are starting to go.  But if we ever do adopt again, we will adopt a little bit of an older child…and she or he will have a special need.

Life became full.  Life became challenging. And lovely. I couldn't imagine life without Jack, Sammy or Katie Mei.

Fast forward to our family today.  Jack and Sammy are older, as is our sweet baby Katie Mei.  Everyone is in school.  My life, is cushy.  Busy, really but cushy. I wasn't looking to adopt again.  Neither I think I can say with confidence was Michael.  We had talked about it from time to time.  We had prayed about it seriously a few years ago…but always got the feeling that it wasn't the right time.

I pray on a daily basis for waiting children all over the world- as well as here in the US, who need their forever families.  Daily my heart yearns for these children to know the love and safety of a family.  I would look at the sweet little faces. And I would pray.  

Then this little one popped up on my computer screen.  And my heart leaped.  My breath caught in my throat. And I think I said "Oh".  I didn't think that anyone had heard, but Michael did.  He came to sit by me on our bed.  And he looked at the sweet little face on my screen.  And he said "Oh."  He then got up and walked into our bathroom.  I stared at that little face and I prayed for her.  And wondered in my heart, Lord, is she our daughter?  Michael called out to me "SO, you want to go back?"  My heart flipped over.

"Why?" I asked him "Do you want to??"  and he just shrugged and asked if we could get information about this little girl.  

What?  Say what?  Really?  Was I ready for this?  I wasn't even thinking of adopting again.  But that little face.  

"Ok."  We kinda smirked at each other and then giggled a little.  We showed the kids her photo, and they all agreed wholeheartedly that we needed to find out more information about her.  So I did.  

We sent her information to two separate doctors, who both agreed she was healthy- but had malformations on her hands and feet.  I contacted our agency, and sent them her information.  We would have to have gotten permission to adopt, due to the fact that we had not even begun a home-study.  So our agency was going to meet about it on Monday.  Monday morning comes, and I check the list again.  She was gone.  Not on the list anymore.  Though I was sad, my first and foremost thought was "Thank God she has a family".  I was overjoyed that she would have a family.

I told Michael and the kids.  Everyone, while glad little "Natalie" (her name on the list) had a family, was disappointed.  And we all wanted to pray about adopting again.  Then, Michael and I prayed together and we decided to fill out an application with our agency again.  

So….we are in it.  We are headed to China again.  We have filled out a SN application, and we are feeling like we will be adopting a little girl about 3-5 years old with a limb difference, or perhaps club feet….we are open to many different needs. 

I am in awe that God has blessed us with this gift of being parents.  Jack, Sam and Katie are the sweetest gifts that I have ever known.  I am unsure of what this road will look like.  I know for certain that this is not the easy path. My life right now, even with a new puppy, is pretty easy.  It would be very easy for me to sit back and really hang out in my skin.  But as I get older, I am more and more convinced of the fact that God didn't call us to have an easy life.  I don't know if we are doing the most comfortable thing, or the easiest thing….but I do know we are doing the right thing.

I am excited to see where this road takes us.  I am excited to follow God down this path of the unknown.  Unsure of many things….but completely sure of Him.  Would you come with us on our journey to our fourth child?



Joker Joker Joker!

Probably no one is old enough to remember The Joker’s Wild…LOL….. without further ado…..

The Winner!!

Congratulations!! : ) Will be sending out your prizes on Monday- weather willing! : )
stay tuned for a post this afternoon….
Perhaps you may be surprised by the content.
Thanks for participating in my first giveaway- it was so fun!! Next month- another one…

The Great Giveaway *** a little change

Ok all my bloggy friends.

Our New Year has begun!  And with a bang.  And a new puppy, named Maisy.  Who has earned the nickname Maisy Moo.

And with many other new adventures in store for the Markmiller family.

What will they entail?


this giveaway will be the start of many in the near future.  

Soooo…..without further Ado….what you, my friends could be winning….

I love this sweet website.  Scarlet Threads is an amazing company.  Here is a little bit about the company:

"Scarlet Threads is a compassionate boutique, specializing in unique products designed and produced by talented seamstresses in rural asia.  The perfect gift for bridal showers, holidays, or any special occasion, all Scarlet Threads products are fairly traded and created in compliance with our core vision and values.  When you purchase one of our beautiful hand-crafted products, you become part of our story by providing a woman with safe and rewarding work." 

I became acquainted with this organization through my friend Carrie who works at New Day Foster Home in China.  I fell in love with the story of this company as well as the beautiful craftsmanship that they do.  

With that in mind, I am giving away one Caroline Apron.

Caroline apron
I love the colors in this, and truly, it is spectacular!!!

The next thing I am giving away….


Not a weekend at her ranch….but I was hoping it would be me- alas, no….

But, a copy of The Pioneer Woman Cooks.  Brand spankin' new. Trust me on this, you need this cookbook.  If only for the mashed potatoes recipe.  No, the chocolate sheet cake.  Aw.  You need this cookbook for every stinking recipe in the book.  It is awesome.

And last but certainly not least….

This super cute purse from my friend : ) Liberty Worth.

I love Liberty- and she is an amazingly gifted seamstress.  She makes the worlds cutest skirts, amazing hand stamped jewelry, baby slings, and the best looking purses around.  This is the one you could be a sportin' on your shoulder and getting looks of envy for….

***** A little change-

Liberty changed her purses a bit….so this will be the one you will be receiving- in some amazingly beautiful fabric….and sweet Liberty is throwing in some fun surprises!!!  SO yeeehaw!!!  Here is a photo- it may be different fabric, but I can assure you, it will be AMAZING!!  Thanks Liberty!!!

You can look at her Etsy shop too.    

So…here is the deal.

Leave me a comment in the comment section.  Tell me your favorite PW recipe, or go look on Scarlet Threads and tell me what you like.  Or visit Liberty Worth and take a gander at her skirts….just leave me a comment…

Or you could even surmise as to what is going on in the Markmiller home this coming year.  

I will be picking a random winner on Friday evening and announcing the winner on Saturday morning. 

I hope you have fun. 

I will be doing more of these.

Oh- I am not being paid or anything by any of these companies.  Or people.  I just love them.  So, there ya have it.  Go to it!!!     

Coming HOME!!! They are COMING HOME!!!

This little LOVELY will be in her Momma and Daddy's arms SOON…. 

And this hansdome Kindy boy will be rocking his parents world today or tomorrow.

My friends, God is good.  Indeed.

Please continue to pray for Haiti.  Pray for orphans coming to America for safe haven, and for hopefully learning the love of a forever family.