good morning. Well, I woke up this morning. That is a good thing. And I felt a dull headache, nothing too bad. So usually, the first thing I do is grab a diet coke. I have to be honest. This was really hard for me. I really really really wanted one. I MEAN REALLY. I actually started feeling angry about the fact that I would not have one. This is by choice. I really want to try and go without today. I think my day yesterday went pretty well- and I thought maybe it would be ok without any today.
So, Katie Mei came up to me (they all know I am doing this) and said "Momma are you ok?" and I told her I was missing my diet coke. She smiled at me and said "maybe we should just throw them all away" and I smiled at my girly. And then I asked if she could get me a bottle of water. She lit up and ran to get me one. I opened it. MMMM. Water. Boy is that stuff good. Can't believe what I was missing.
So, I decided to stave off the big headache- and took some excedrin. I then made pumpkin pancakes for my family- and grabbed a yogurt and downed my water. The kids were watching Arthur and Sammy called to me "Mom- did you drink a diet coke?" and I triumphantly said "nope!" and raised my water. The three kids cheered. And Michael kissed my forehead. And told me he loved me. It made me feel strong and know that I have the best family behind me. I have friends who are supporting me. And though this may not hold a candle to a much worse addiction- it is still an addiction to me. And it is tough.
I know without a doubt that I am doing the right thing for my body and my heart. Just wish the withdrawls weren't so tough.