I just am crabby. And as I get older I get crabbier. I know news flash. But let me tell you what I am most crabby about today. Why is it that food that tastes yummy is not good for you. Now, don't get me wrong- I ate an amazingly yummy dinner of grilled salmon, steamed rice and edamame- all good for me, and all yummy. BUT. The foods that I crave….not so much. And it has been difficult lately. Since we found out we were moving, I have put on a few pounds (ahem, 15)- and it has been harder to lose. To be truthful about it, it has been hard to want to eat the correct foods. Or, the healthiest choices. I know what my body needs, but how about what it wants.
I need to find the balance between the two. All the while dealing with the voices in my head that have haunted me my whole life about my weight. I have struggled with how I look, how I feel, what people have said to me about how I look. You know. I know you know. And at a mid-life age, I find myself in the same position. I find myself listening to those voices that tend to be louder. I find myself slipping into the mind frame of the young 15 year old girl who was told she was fat. And it is hard yet again.
So what to do. I want to feel healthy- be healthy so that I can run around after my kids. And I know what it takes to get there. I know that I can be at a healthy weight and feel great about myself- but I also know that whatever weight I am, those voices will still be there finding fault with the things that are not "perfect". What I really want to to is to tell those voices to shut up.
So. Will you join me on this journey- not only to get healthy- but to silence those voices that were ingrained in my heart when I was young?
Perhaps it won't be the shortest or easiest journey- but it will be worth it, right?
Now, how many points are in Chubby Hubby?
I'm just sayin…..