First off, thank you all for letting me know you still are around and reading. : ) Love you all.
Jack and I had the amazing opportunity to see Wicked a couple of weeks ago. A friend from our church has the amazing ability to get some AMAZING tickets, so for the big birthday, I bought some tickets for a special date night with my oldest boy. The rest of the family had already seen it- all but Katie Mei- so Jack was really excited. Going to the theater is a huge experience for me. I love going to the theater. It stirs my soul. It touches my heart.
Taking my children to the theater has been such a dream to me. To watch the experience through their eyes. I am really thankful that it seems that all my children love it as well. When we walked into the theater Jack started to smile. I didn’t tell him that we had 3rd row seats. So we walked in and we kept walking down the aisle. He was in awe. The sets, the lighting, the orchestra pit, the plush seats. All a part of the experience.
We noticed that there were different people playing the leads Galinda and Elphaba. I was excited to see what each of them brought to the roles. I was blown away by how amazing these women were. I can only imagine how difficult it must be to not do the play every night and then come on stage and just hit it. The woman who played Elphaba was amazing. She played the part just beautifully, and NAILED every note.
I began thinking about those two roles. Galinda, the "good"…
and Elphaba "the wicked" (this is Julie Reiber, who we saw)
Michael asked me once who I would most like to play if I were a part of the production. Glinda would be fun. I mean, you get to travel by bubble for heavens sake. AND she gets to sing Popular. Who wouldn’t love that. But, I immediately told him, "Elphaba". I connected with her character so strongly it surprised me. Elphaba is such a deep and rich character. She longs to be loved. She longs to be noticed. And she is totally misunderstood. But throughout the show, she really comes into an understanding of who she is and her place in the world. She also learns, finally about true love. It really is a wonderful story.
I still feel connected in my heart to that young Elphaba. The one who was ostracized and taunted. The one who was made to feel as though she would never belong. One who looks at the boy and falls in love with one touch, and watches as he romances another. The one whose parents were indifferent to her. Somehow, she gains confidence. She finds friends. She is enveloped in love. She is "that girl" that the boy loves. And she finds that perhaps she has an amazing purpose in the world.
Isn’t that life? I am thankful, so thankful for the life given to me. I am blessed with everything not only that I have, but that I have gone through. I know now that we walk through trials not only to strengthen our walk with God, but also to be able to help someone who may cross your path in the future. In the midst of all our struggles, it is hard to see the good in it. Rest assured at some point the trial we have to walk through will come into the light again with someone who is going through something similar. I have a hard time being thankful in all times of trouble. I have a hard time seeing the end of that yellow brick road. I want to be Galinda and travel in my safe little bubble throughout life.
I am slowly learning that my life, my relationship with the Lord is not about living in a bubble. Life is not all about having things run the way we think they should. Life is about those moments crying and thinking "I’m not that girl". But the most wonderful thing happens on the other side of those struggles and trials. We find out that we really were that girl the entire time. And we can use those oddities, those struggles, those pain filled seasons to help another Elphaba find their way.
Friends, we are facing a trial in our family. It is nothing major, but we as a family are dealing with a trial. Please pray for us, pray for our son. Pray that we can help him walk through this struggle and walk out the other side with him feeling victorious. I want him to walk down this path of life KNOWING with all his heart that God is there walking with him and so are Dad and Mom.